Life doesn’t

Life doesn’t turn out how you dreamed it would.
Life doesn’t always turn out how you want.
Life throws things at you that your can’t always control.
Life’s biggest challenge is learning how to cope with everything that gets thrown at you!!!!

I wish

I wish that I could have one day every now and then where I wake up feeling good, pain free, and have energy to enjoy the day!!!!!

It wore me out just to take a shower this morning

It wore me out just to take a shower this morning (wells actually noon time).  When I need to “do everything” wash and condition hair, shave my legs, and shower in general it takes so much out of me.  By the time I am done, I am so tired, feeling ill, low back pain that radiates down my legs, and the tingling sensation that goes over my whole body is so disconcerting for me.
I have to sit and rest when feeling like this, but I cant sit at the computer very long because it causes more thoracic and lumbar back pain and tail bone pain.
I just have to sit and wonder what I did to deserve all of this.

I have had 2 Microdiscectomies at L4-5

I have had 2 Microdiscectomies at L4-5 and now I have Herniated again for the 3rd time and now have pain in Lumbar spine and going down both my legs and now I have started having this tingling sensation all over. They want me to have Spinal Fusion now, but the more I read about it, I think I will wait. I don’t have the quality of life I want but now that I am not working I can manage for the most part. I just don’t have good luck medically every disc in my lumbar spine is either Herniated or Bulging. When I had the first discectomy I thought WOW finally relief, but about a year later I reherniated just by bending over and the second only lasted a month or two. My surgeon said some people just continue to reherniate…Lovely that would be me. So I have fear of getting worse if I have the Spinal Fusion done.